Having a smoke and wondering what its all about. This life of love and distance and heartache. Saying I love you everyday. The stench of living with people you don't know. Trying not to cry, being strong. It's hard but we get through. Hope we don't get evicted by the new year, or the end of the month. I'm scared but I must get through this.

So I am off to London England this Sunday. Gonna be a long plane ride... BLEH

So I am officially drawing a  comic about a story me and my friends made up in 6th Grade. Its evolved a lot since then though, haha lets hope.

Blah blah blah.

NEW ART, Yay.
This is actually art for the comic.        ( Its only Teenage Wasteland... )
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Yay! The one that got me was the loved ones question. I couldn't kill a loved one if they turned into a zombie. I picked the run away option. XD

GO zombies!

 

I eat spaghetti-O's! Wooohoooo. Thats the trouble with listening to music through your headphones you can't hear if anyone is breaking into your house.
T'is a good day. Me mam bought a trampoline (yes I am a geek and still live with me mum). I set it up with my brother and his girlfriend, we had a fiendishly good time. I've never giggled and screeched so hard in my life.

Spent Canada Day selling booze at the liquor store in which I am employed. Shut down at 10:00pm and went off with a co-worker and friend to Whyte Ave. where we yelled and cops and ran really really fast. Or wait... was that just me? I'm pretty sure I was the only one. Oh well. Went to pub and Castle, tried to drag friends into The Black Dog, nothing doing there. Got home and watched "The Holiday" with Kate Winslet and Jack Black. SO GOOD. Me and Karley squeeled when Kate's character kissed Jack's character. It is now ranked 2nd best movie kiss with Hannibal/Clarice kiss 1st.

My feet smell and I need a shower. :(


Kings of Convenience- Know-How

Riding on this know-how
Never been here before
Peculiarly entrusted
Possibly that's all
Is history recorded?
Does someone have a tape?
Surely, I'm no pioneer
Constellations stay the same

Just a little bit of danger
When intriguingly
Our little secret
Trusts that you trust me
'Cause no one will ever know
That this was happening
So tell me why you listen
When nobody's talking

What is there to know?
All this is what it is
You and me alone
Sheer simplicity

What is there to know?
All this is what it is
You and me alone
Sheer simplicity

What is there to know?
All this is what it is
You and me alone
Sheer simplicity

( Canada Day )

Just a little comic I was working on based on the movie "The Hitcher" with Sean Bean even though I adored the first movie with Rutger Hauer as John Ryder.

Anywho I took some scenes and drew them with my friend Cara and I in mind, and what we would do if Sean Bean wanted to hitch a ride and turned out to be a psychopath...

So I think I've decided to move down to Fort McMurray to get a job as a chef, they make tons down there and I think it'll be good for me to get away, lose some more weight and work hard. I'm sick of my job here, they changed the schedules again and I didn't check it yesterday but they phoned and told me I missed work today, I was like "WTF MATE? Fucking cocksuckers!" But I have to make it definite soon, because if I don't go down there I'm going to have to get a second job so I can move out. X( It's all so confusing! But I can't get a second job until after April because my friend Karley, I and perhaps Ricki are heading down to Kananaskis on April 26th. And we've been planning this forever! So another job can't get in the way of that.

Ugh.
I officially hate life. Only a long sensual hug from Sean Bean can get my life going again. :(
I'm so confused right now. WOW! This JUST in my cousin Josh may want to move to Edmonton and work for the NDP! SO we MIGHT find a place together. Neato! I'm kind of excited but I'm NOT getting my hopes up. :P

CAPS are FUN! XP


So if Josh really wants to go through with it I won't have to go live in Fort McMurray. XD

Huzah!


I want a Sean Bean... :(

Haha, awesome! Casablanca is a classic man! And if I had a choice I would totally want to look like Bogart. Far out!

Humphrey Bogart You scored 35% Tough, 28% Roguish, 4% Friendly, and 33% Charming!

You're the original man of honor, rough and tough but willing to stick your neck out when you need to, despite what you might say to the contrary. You're a complex character...you've got a soft heart but you try to hide it behind cuastic remarks and rakish behavior. You can be quite debonair when you want to be, and the women fall at your feet. But there's usually a complicated dame in the picture, someone who sees the real you behind all the bravado, and who can dish it out as well as you can. You're not easy to get next to, but when you find the right partner, you click but good, and you're caring and loyal to a fault. A big fault. But you take it on the chin and move on, nursing your pain inside and maintaining your armor...until the next dame walks in. Or possibly the same dame, and of all the gin joints in all the world, it had to be yours. Co-stars include Ingrid Bergman and Lauren Bacall, classy dames with issues. Find out what kind of classic dame you'd make by taking the Classic Dames Test.

I've made a couple Icons I made.

The Sopranos








Coldplay- Fix you

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I..

Tears stream, down on your face
I promise you I will learn from the mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I..

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

Me and my friends went to the Old Fashioned Photo Parlour in West Ed dressed up and got our photos taken. I of course dressed up as an Olde Victorian Man. And had lots of fun doing it.

I also had the strangest dream last night, as all dreams are strange mind you.

All I can remember from the beginning is that I was being chased down by a mob guy who was pretty much psycho and I ran into this club throwing trash cans in his way as I ran, I got into the club and tried to mingle with the crowd so as he wouldn't suspect me. Unfortunately he found me and I ran out the back door trying to escape as fast as I could freaking out along the way but trying to hide at the same time. He caught up with me and grabbed me, took out his gun and then pointed it at me thats when I tried to plead with him and tell him it wasn't worth it, I started crying and he sort of just stared at me. I figured he'd seen people beg for their life so many times he had found some sick pleasure in it but then I actually looked at him and I could see sympathy in his eyes so I used it to my advantage and stood up really close to him and hugged him, he hugged me back hard. He pulled me down on his knees and we sat there hugging eachother, it felt like a thousand people had walked by when he let me pull away from him and he gave me a list of the choices I had. It went like this:

1. Something Something
2. Something Something
3. Something Nothings
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4. You could run, call the cops and tell them about me then I'll have to track you down and torture and slowly kill you for the information,
5. You could walk away from it all and pretend you've never heard of me, or the alliance I work for and live in unsure security your whole life
6. Work for me and live the rest of your life in security

So needless to say I chose 5 and he ripped it off and I took it with me, I suppose to remind me of the business I had got myself into. The same night I wound up in a huge fancy hotel which reminded me a lot of the Delta Inn, I was supposed to meet up with all my friends, dress up and go to a school reunion. I found my friends who were already dressed up, I'm pretty sure there was, Cara, Chelsea, Leah, Amanda, Courtney, and Dana. They all looked really pretty, I was the only one not dressed up so I went to find the dressing rooms and on the way terrorists had overtaken the hotel so I found my way into a Janitors room and stood there trying to figure out what to do.


 When I figured something out I ran into a room by an elevator where there were lots of frightened scared people, the terrorists had found them and stuck them in there. I saw a little African American boy and picked him up trying to save him from getting trampled by the mean cold hearted terrorists that were walking by. His father saw him and grabbed him from me giving me an evil stare. I found my way past the Russians(Terrorists) and found myself in an empty hall with lots of doors and a huge hall to the right of me, to the left was a balcony one story up from the main floor and below it was a huge indoor fountain. A chinese woman dressed like a doctor was frantically trying to run towards me and I stopped, she caught up to me and started to run down the hallway in front of me so I followed after her. When she ran into a door to the right I followed and found myself in a large ballroom with all the teachers from High School trapped by the Russians along with some of the students all dressed up in gowns and tuxes. The Russians had their guns and were shooting at the teachers and students who were trying to barricade themselves with the chairs from the ballroom I ran back out and found a Russian trying to find the resy, I mugged him and took his pistol, running back into the ballroom I started to shoot down the Russians one by one. Out of ammo I spotted another gun by one of the chairs and ran for it, one of the stupid students grabbed and fired the last bullet crazily out of target. Calmly I found another gun and shot down the last two Russians making it safe for the faculty and others to get out the  back door to the Ballroom. I went out the same door I came in which lead me to the balcony and thats when I bumped into the assasin that was after me in the beginning of the dream, he threw me a gun and we took out some of the Russians while jumping into a nearby room and barricading it.
Sort of just sitting there breathing hard from all the stress we laughed a little and looked at eachother and hugged. Thats when I woke up. DAMN YOU DREAMS! DAMN YOU ALL TO HELL! I always wake up at the best part of the dream... :P

Ugh... I'm so tired of life. This is the first drawing I've done in 3 weeks, it sucks but I'm attached to it so blah. I quit my job at Safeway and am now waiting for numerous calls from numerous places of business. I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. I'm so confused, are you supposed to be this confused? I miss High school, real life sucks. I'm not relying on my art skills to get through life anymore. ;'(   I'm scared this may be it for me, I'm scared I may never become anything more. I'm just plain scared, and the cost of living on your own nowadays is staggering, I fucking hate Safeway I swear to god something nasty should happen to every Safeway in the world, they are one of the most evil corporations in the world. FACT! I need to save up and go on a train ride somewhere. I still want to visit England and Scotland. Oh how I yearn to be free. Maybe I shyould just finish the book I started to write awhile back and maybe it will sell millions. XD Wouldn't that be great for me? Yes it would!

Sonya Kitchell - Train
I've just taken a seat on the train
I walked through busy streets down a shadowy lane
I just bought my ticket for the ride
there's no turning back now
no matter what I decide
steel body moves fast, hinges pounding against the ground
I sink into my seat
I pray for it to speed up, but I wish it would slow down
my body quivers with anticipation for what lies ahead
wood is thrown onto the fire that cries out to be fed
mist shrouds the dawn, so ahead I cannot see
the train it moves ever forward into the misty sea

there's so many faces
most of the time I feel so alone
there's so many places
will I ever stop and know my own home?

I know I'm gonna get there, but I'm not sure when
nor do I know where I'm going, so I won't pretend
I cannot see beyond the horizon nor around the bend
the train it moves ever forward without a seeming end...
out of one window, I saw rain
I looked through the other, and I felt the warm sun's rays
the wind, it gently blew across my weary shoulder
and time whispered in my ear, Child, you're just gonna keep getting older
but I've done nothing more than take a seat on this here train
yet my life turned upside down and only
only the little things are right

1.- If I were a fruit I'd be... A Lime

2.- If I were a colour I'd be... Green

3.- If I were an animal I'd be... A Polar bear

4.- If I were a domestic appliance I'd be... Washing Machine

5.- If I were a book I'd be...  Awake and Dreaming by Kit Pearson

6.- If I were a clothing item I'd be... Comfy old Pajama Bottoms with wacky designs

7.- If I were a piece of jewelry I'd be... A Hair Clip

8.- If I were an object I'd be... A Fence post

9.- If I were a car I'd be... Shelby Cobra GT500 Mustang

10.- If I were an element I'd be... Water

11.- If I were a tree I'd be... A Spruce

12.- If I were a drink I'd be... Cappucino

13.- If I were an ice cream flavor I'd be... Mint Chocolate Chip

14.- If I were a person I'd be... Amelia Airhart

15.- If I were a planet I'd be... Pluto (Too cool to be a planet)

16.- If I were an insect I'd be... A Water Beetle

17.- If I were a transport medium I'd be... A horse

18.- If I were a song I'd be... "If I could change the world" By Eric Clapton

19.- If I were a movie I'd be... Danny Deckchair

20.- If I were a season I'd be... Spring

21.- If I were a flower I'd be... A Daisy

22.- If I were a job I'd be... Dictator

23.- If I were a cartoon character I'd be... Bugs Bunny

24.- If I were a place I'd be... Sicily

25.- If I were a gift I'd be... An annoying Kitten

26.- If I were a memory I'd be... Jumping off the dock into a lake in the summer

27.- If I were a city I'd be... Oslo

28.- If I were a sense I'd be... Olfactory

29.- If I were a game I'd be... Dominoes

30.- If I were a candy I'd be... Gummy frogs

31.- If I were a time of the day I'd be... Late morning

32.- If I were an invention I'd be... The Radio

33.- If I were a bodypart I'd be... The pinky of the left hand

34.- If I were a country I'd be... Norway

35.- If I were a flavor I'd be... Bitter and sweet

36.- If I were a sport I'd be... Rugby

37.- If I were a smell I'd be... Fresh baked bread

38.- If I were a subject I'd be... English (Which I normally did sleep through)

39.- If I were a flag I'd be...  the Canadian Maple Leaf

40.- If I were a building I'd be... the Edmonton Legislature Building

41.- If I were a month I'd be... June

42.- If I were a perfume I'd be... N'19 CHANEL

43.- If I were a gummy candy I'd be... Gummy worms

45.- If I were a toy I'd be... A Jack in the Box

46.- If I were a textile I'd be... Cashmier

47.- If I were a shape I'd be... a triangle

48.- If I were an answer I'd be... Unthinking

49.- If I were a common licorice I'd be... Black Licorice

50.- If I were a word I'd be... Mud

You meet the devil at the bottom of the wishing well.




Step out the front door like a ghost into the fog
Where no one notices the contrast of white on white



And in between the moon and you the angels get a better view

Greetings fellows!

 

Yeah I've been busy and my feet hurt. =(
I might have found a place to live in Calgary and sucks to me if I don't get it.

Heehee.. I did bad things this week! SHAZAM! I'm not telling on here, someone might find it! GASP! I'm bored.

I bought Die Hard and I got all excited when Alan Rickman came on.. I was like, wow. I mean I've seen it before but not before I found out Alan was in it. HAWT! *drools*

And a lot of shit has happened this week that I'll probably have to deal with. Fuckity fuckt.
Saving up to go to England I'm putting away 100 every month until I have enough to go there, then I'm trecking off to Switzerland, Norway, Scotland (where my family owns some land that no one has claimed) and hopefully I'm never going home.

Melissa Etheridge - Silent Legacy

Why did you steal the matches
From the one room motel
Once they gave you answers
Now they give you hell
They will never understand
They wonder where did they go wrong
How could you be so selfish
Why cant you get along

And as you pray in your darkness
For wings to set you free
You are bound to your silent legacy

Youve seen it in the movies
And youve heard it on the street
Craving the affection
Your blood is full of heat
They dont listen to your reasons
As original as sin
Deny all that you feel
And they will bring you home again

Your body is alive
But no one told you what youd feel
The empty aching hours
Trying to conceal
The natural progression
Is the coming of your age
But they cover it with shame
And turn it into rage

You are digging for the answers
Until your fingers bleed
To satisfy the hunger
To satiate the need
They feed you on the guilt
To keep you humble keep you low
Some man and myth they made up
A thousand years ago


I can't wait to LEAVE!



YEAH PATSY BABY!

Woooooo.... Pre-test today for work to see how far along I am to get the stupid job. God I suck at tests.. Doesn't Wolfgang make you want to jump around and dance for joy!~ *runs around and stumbles on the coffee table* Err.

SO I was bored today, going to the dentist tommorow I fuckin' hate the dentist. Ugh.
I HAVE to do something with my life, write a novel? Mmhmm... *slaps self in the face* It's a good thing to live in Alberta with all the jobs, everyone is hiring. Indeed it is awesome. They were playing Mesmer on T.V. I was drooling terribly over Alan Rickman and his sweet voice. Stupid codes.

Anywho! Eye candy!





Also I bought a movie titled Mesmerize with Jodie Foster and John Lithgow it turned out to be quite awesome, set in the 1880's.
Heres some screen caps.

Woo hoo! I found my song! :P
Alright- Five For Fighting
I took her leaving like I did before
I turned around and I asked for more
And she didn’t even mean a thing to me

I left my spirit at the chapel door
I sailed around til I lost the war
And you didn’t even think to send a thing

But I’m alright, alright, I feel alright
I never been better in my life
You know the score

I’m just fine, I’m fine, feeling fine
A regular sawed off valentine
That nothing more

I hit my head upon the chamber door
And all the marbles rolled on the floor
And all the psychos in the ward start screaming¡­

I’m alright, alright, I feel alright
I never been better in my life
You know the score

I’m just fine, I’m fine, feeling fine
A regular sawed off valentine
That nothing more

My baby

I’m alright, alright, I feel alright
I never been better in my life
You know the score

I’m just fine, I’m fine, feeling fine
A regular sawed off valentine
That nothing more

Nothing really matters to me...

Watching... Rough days ahead...
Caught in a landslide... No escape from reality...!!!! Blue skies AHEAD! AHOY THERE!
But I'm happy and thats all that matters. I might've gotten something completely messed up on my Heart of Darkness essay... XD oh the halarity ensues.
I'm quite bored and decided to put up my favorite picture. :) I HATE the american spelling system, I kept trying to fix the spell check to change it to Canadian spelling because on the american one it said that Colour was wrong... I was getting pissed off. I hate technology and it hates me. Anywho so I decided to leave it and not spell check it. Hope I didn't mess up too badly.
There are SO many bugs everywhere! It's annoying. My life is monotonous... and I HATE this keyboard... I want a new one, like the nice black ones that are easy to type on and Oh so smoooooooooth... and they don't make HUGE FUCKIN' clacking sounds.
I like that word clacking...

Anywho heres the song that sums up my life right now. :

So you think you're gonna take her away
With your money and your cocaine
Keep thinkin' that her mind is gonna change
But I know everything is okay

She's gonna listen to her heart
It's gonna tell her what to do
She might need a lot of loving
But she don't need you

You want me to think that I'm being used
You want her to think it's over
But you can't see it doesn't matter what you do
Buddy, you don't even know her

She's gonna listen to her heart
It's gonna tell her what to do
She might need a lot of loving
But she don't need you

And you just can't creep up behind her
Why can't you understand that she's my girl
She's my girl
She's my girl

She's gonna listen to her heart
It's gonna tell her what to do
She might need a lot of lovin'
But she don't need you

It's a friggin metaphor OKAY!... Oh wait it's not. WHAT THE HELL! X(

Anywho Lestrade take me away from boredom!
P.s. I need Sims 2... SHAZAM!
SNAPE IS INNOCENT! XP I'm being a bitch again.

Yay I made customized mood things. They aren't very good but what the heck. :P
Jeremy Brett/Sherlock Holmes Series/Misc.

Calm   Bouncy   Bored 
Aggravated

Loved   Sore   Sleepy   Curious

Horny   Impatient  High   Guilty

Groggy   Enthralled  Drunk   Accomplished

Contemplative  Touched
Shocked

RelaxedRecumbant Pissed off

Nostalgic  Naughty  Lonely 

Jubilant  Irritated Irate

Indifferent  Indescribable Impressed

Happy  Giggly 
Energetic

Creative  Crazy  Confused

It was hard to find a still of Jeremy being angry enough for some of these... But luckily I found some good enough.
I know they're all different sizes but what you can do you do. :P *pokes a radish and then eats it* Mmmyep.

INSPEC. LESTRADES A HOTTIE> !  :D

Anywho, what crazy times these have been. I'm almost done school, just have to do my exams and then on to Prom! I'm getting my make-up and hair professionally done which I am excited for. :0 Yay for V8 drinks! I'm obviously not the only one in the world that likes them since they are still in business.

I just haven't written in my journal for a long time so I will keep updating! I have not DIED! :O

Aaaannd... I'll have more to post at a later date. :P

In accordance to gloria_scott's idea of putting up awesome screencaps, I want to show everyone some sc's of JB playing Sherlock Holmes disguised as a plumber by the name of Escot. The episode came from the story The Adventure of Charles Augustus Milverton about a man who was dubbed by Holmes to be "The worst man in London." He makes his fortune by blackmailing people of fame or fortune.
Holmes explains, "With a smiling face and a heart of marble he will squeeze and squeeze until he has drained them dry. The fellow is a genius in his way, and would have made his mark in some more savoury trade. His method is as follows: He allows it to be known that he is prepared to pay very high sums for letters which compromise people of wealth or position. He recieves these wares not only from treacherous valets or maids, but frequently from genteel ruffians who have gained the confidence and affection of trusting women."
- The Adventure of Charles Augustus Milverton- The Return of Sherlock Holmes- Sir Arthur Conan Doyle